[force of nature] too soft to handle their intended purpose.
intended as a weapon. called up, does their best, but it's just not to be. the problem is that one doesn't just get to say no. a soft heart doesn't remove one from their purpose. either they're going to learn quickly or they're going to die.
they know this.
there's blood on their hands. it's always been there. the flesh that strips away under their hands now, that has also always been there.
they know this, too.
awareness alone isn't going to save them. that is the thought that keeps them going, even as the icy fear crawls in their belly and threatens to leave them frozen in the ash.